I want to let go of cancer. I'll keep the lessons I learned – people love me and will go to great lengths to show it when needed; I am superwoman; I have something to say that people want to hear. But I'll let go of trying to figure out why it happened, and the remnants of despair as well as the remnants of self-importance that linger. In 2012 I want to know how everybody else is doing instead of having every conversation dominated by talks of cancer treatment.
I want to finish my book. Create more time for fun for me and my kids and my love. Create a livelihood that matches my gifts AND my passions. I have big dreams for 2012!
I want to let go of always doing and saying what I THINK everyone else wants me to be, do, and say. The tricky part is trusting myself enough to do this.
Open the door
I want to let go of the pressing need to excuse my house if it's untidy when people make impromptu visits. I simply want to welcome visitors without the condition of the house being a topic of conversation AT ALL, and to release any thought that I may be judged for the way I keep house! If I haven't had time to tidy or clean, so be it!
Advertisers really did a number on our mothers beginning around the 1940s (via images of ecstatic kitchen-bound apron-wearing housewives surrounded by gleaming appliances in 'spotless' homes, and via the introduction of a dizzying array of cleaning products to keep everything at a ridiculously sanitised level), and they planted it into us.
Not saying slovenliness will reign chez moi, but ditching the nagging 'good girl' voice that carps about what I SHOULD be doing domestically will open a door to more joy, more freedom and a clearer head space for creative endeavours like writing and art and hatching new programs for my business. Calling all women to make a worldwide pact about this!
I want to embrace
I want to let go of letting go. I want to make deeper connections with my family and friends and not live so detached. I want to risk being intertwined and not resist interdependence. I want to love full heart and not keep pieces only for my self, which leads to detachment. So I don't want to let go this year I want to embrace.
What is your answer to this question: What do you want to let go of, and what do you want to create in 2012?
You can submit it here and I will post several a day as we count down to the launch of my new 37days site on January 5th, 2012 with a free, online party! Come!