I want to let go of the old story: the one I told myself over and over, for years, complete with soundtrack of love songs, and fantasy visions of how it was all going to look and feel. I am letting go of this story of 'love' and I am living life now, as it is. I want to be a creator of life and memories, not just a dreamer. I want to be the author of my life, not the one who pines for that something (someone) who is going to make it different.
True, it is harder when the "someone" was a real person, who did give you the fairytale for while. I would never ever have believed I would be the one caught up in that, or that I would struggle so much to let it go. But there you have it.
I am letting go of the story, and picking up the threads of life as it is / as I continue to create it / as it happens. How glorious.
Let go of my fear of succeeding.
I want to let go of my fear of succeeding. I want to let go of the voice that repeats inside my head that I'm not good enough, or deserving enough, to achieve and embrace all that I am capable of.
I want to create a life where I finally allow others fully into my heart, so that it's a two-way stream of relationship – not just me hearing them, but them hearing me, too. The real me, not the prettied-up me. And I want to be okay with letting anyone walk away who needs to because they can't deal with that.
Let go of being tense.
I want to let go of keeping my body in a tense state, but rather breathing through my experiences and staying in touch with my body. I want to create a safe space within myself to continue doing my art in 2012.
Stop deferring the future
I need the steadiness of my own heart and hands for myself this next year as I begin taking steps towards my future goals. I need to let go of the fear that the money, time, and effort I'm risking will be wasted. I am creating the future I tried to defer – But like a loan payment, its time has come and it is due.
What is your answer to this question: What do you want to let go of, and what do you want to create in 2012?
You can submit it here and I will post several a day as we count down to the launch of my new 37days site on January 5th, 2012 with a free, online party! Come! Over 800 people have registered so far!